The Bright Side in the Midsts of Overwhelm

The end of the school year is near, and so much is happening. I feel entirely overwhelmed.

On the bright side though, I got a new job that I am extremely excited about.

The weather has been absolutely wonderful.

And I have the best boyfriend in the world who is helping me with everything along the way. He eases all the stress and makes life a whole lot happier. 

This weekend I got a little taste of what it is like to be a normal girl at my friend's bachelorette party. If it wasn't for the sangria in my system, I would have been completely lost in translation, cut off from conversation, and entirely on the outside.


But it was a beautiful day at the lake, and the girls were perfectly nice. So I took a deep breath, took a big gulp of sangria,  and said a little prayer. I dove right it. And I kinda fit in. Most of all, I had a great time. Now it won't be something I do every day, I still enjoy cuddling my cat and watching supernatural way more than I like to interact with people. But it was really nice to be on the inside for once. It was nice to fit in with the typical chatty cathys. It was nice to belong. 


But more than that, I now know that the only thing holding me back is me. It is truly me. I can do whatever I want. I do not have to be the shy girl, sitting on the sideline. I can make a gazzilion lady friends if I want. I may not really want to, but I know the only person who holds me back. Well, my sobriety may be holding me back a little as well ;)